I’ve been reading ‘Love, Freedom, Aloneness’ by Osho. The way he speaks about love makes me think that what we’re talking about when we say “I love you” is something far different. He says that love always remains even as companions change, and to some sense I understand what he means but I just can’t shake the feeling that it’s wrong to just change companionship and keep the love. It seems like stealing to me.
Either way, I’m really disturbed by how much the relationships that we have (or had) can reign so long and so intense in our heads. Like nothing else even matters. At least that’s how I see it.
What’s freedom, money, power, satisfaction, happiness, and sadness if we have no one to share it with or nothing to do with it?
We all eventually learn something that makes us feel as though everything we knew before was wrong. It makes us feel like a child playing in a sand box.
We can create new things and knock them down immediately afterwards to make room for other new things and we aren’t saddened by it because the process is what makes us happiest.
I love that! It’s what living in the moment is all about! You don’t care about what went on a few days ago or what’s going on in a few hours. Your focus is fully on the sand that’s sifting between your fingers.
But we don’t understand that anymore. We love to talk about how we should live in the here and now and nod approvingly when others repeat us, but we have no clue what we’re talking about; and it makes me upset to know that even I have no clue what I’m talking about.
A moment of clarity; that’s all this really is.
I know we aren’t doing things right. It’s not because the scriptures are telling me what’s right and what’s wrong. It’s because we all know, within our spirits, when something we have done is wrong, but we deny it and put on a mask that no one likes.
And we lie, cheat, play games, and our beauty becomes ugly.
The thoughts invade us even while we sleep and we don’t want to think that it’s our spirit that is trying to talk to us because that would be painful.
There is so much to learn. There are books that teach us the way to live in happiness and we say that we don’t have the time to read them!
We’ve become scared of change and freedom.
We’ve even become scared of love.
Why?
